Just as a quick intro – this is the start of a sort of series I want to do. I had the idea to write posts based on songs. Basically just whatever I start thinking of while listening to that particular song and where my thoughts head from there, so this could go pretty much anywhere. Sometimes it’s the entire theme of the song, other times I just focus on a specific lyric. Just a little experiment I want to try.
Our lives are our own. We control them, we make decisions for ourselves. At least, this is what we are told. Make your dreams come true, reach for your goals. So why do things still hold us back? Sometimes things do spiral out of our control, external forces mean we can’t always do what we want. Other times, it’s ourselves holding us back. Mostly out of fear. So many of us don’t go for things because we are scared of failure. Scared that we won’t make it, that we aren’t good enough. Some thing I’m probably guilty of doing myself. And people can say ‘Don’t be afraid, just go for it’ but for the wallflowers like myself, it’s not quite that simple. It’s difficult to summon courage within ourselves. I often wish I could find it, wish I could just plunge into things. Sometimes I feel like life is just passing by, and I’m not making the most of it. I want to be able to say ‘Now. Now is when I’m going to start making it happen.” But more often than not, it doesn’t. Prime, basic example – look at how often I update this blog. Standard advice for budding writers is to write everyday, but I find that pretty hard to do most of the time. Not so much out of fear though, more laziness or lack of inspiration. So I can work on that more easily than I can on the confidence issues. And you can only tell yourself that you’re just having on off day so many times. We all know the clichés – seize every opportunity, grab life with both hands, dreams only come true if you work for them. And I’m not denying any of this, I absolutely believe that we should make the most of life. I’m just saying, for the people like me, that it’s ok to find this hard sometimes, as long as you keep trying anyway.
Song: Weightless – All Time Low (“Maybe it’s not my weekend, but it’s gonna be my year.”)